Well… I emailed my dad for the first time in a long time. He deadnamed me immediately and addressed nothing I said.

He was nice. Not kind. That’s what I’m used to. But honestly I’ve been alone for a really long time and even in that I felt better knowing at least he cares a little that I’m alive.

And this is what people don’t really understand about the trans experience.

He will never love ME. Just his version of me which isn’t who I am.

But idk. I don’t have many options. I feel very alone. And I miss my dad.