another factor in why i drink the way i do is that while being tipsy is alright i actively dislike being drunk. it's for a similar reason that i dislike most weed, particularly sativas, actually. in both cases i can feel my brain slowing down and it is intensely uncomfortable and distracting, so whatever other pleasant effects might be happening i cannot possibly enjoy or even notice

like people say you can't tell you're impaired when you're drunk but I Can and It Sucks