I really don't know why it is I've lost motivation this badly to nerd on my own projects due to AI.
All the things I like coding on for my own purposes are things nobody would want to pay me for. Economically, all of it has been quite worthless. Likewise, I never even *wanted* to become a professional artist or musician, I just enjoyed creating things.
So it seems completely bizarre to me that I still strongly feel like AI has made it all pointless.