i feel like a wisp
i had a tenuous little niche on twitter, and that collapsed obviously, and multiple other friendships disintegrated at the same time, and i never really recovered. cohost was painful and is gone now. bluesky i feel surrounded by strangers who think i'm annoying. mastodon barely works and my instance is shutting down, again
i've been struggling so much to do anything for a long time because, well, who cares? who cares. who am i going to show. who is excited for anything i'm doing. i don't know. certainly a few people but. i don't know. this doesn't sound right either. but something crumbled that was keeping me barely afloat before