I am really touched by how many people have sent me messages about my essay. I write a lot of things in a lot of ways: THIS thing is not written for everyone and was written to be challenging. I think those for whom it was written have found it!
There are a few reasons for that difficulty: I think it's fun. I like it. It's how I think. It's also effortful in the same labyrinthine way that trying to figure out why you never BELONG in tech is labyrinthine.