Ultimately I try to be grateful for the duality that I can see and feel because I think that navigating this requires having compassion for all these sides of ourselves. Being an ambitious person, with many years of skills, who gets joy out of creating, but also being a person in a world that is very happy to take advantage of creative and ambitious people past their limits. Knowing it is true that collectively my beautiful queer household starts further back always, this is just reality.
You have to find ways to fight that aren't grinding. You have to find paths to work hard that feel meaningful, like the rewards flow back to you and not to everyone else. You have to take the world as it is yet continually and always expect it to be far better than you have experienced. It is a lifelong challenge.
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