I honestly don’t even know why I hate the holidays or why they make me sad but I do and they do. It doesn’t help that my mental state has been pretty shit anyway. I wish I could see how life could possibly get better but it really does feel like I’ll just survive and endure it at best. Society sucks, capitalism sucks, the systems we’re forced to live under are a prison that punishes happiness, self fulfillment, and personal growth.