been reading a lot about digital minimalism lately, and i think i want to try it, but i’m so uniquely terrified of a life offline that i don’t know if i reasonably could without just being so … anxious?

i rely on internet for my music streaming. i rely on internet for my friends and partners. i rely on internet for my video games. i love my iphone, it plays all my music. i love my iphone, it’s how i kiss my girlfriends goodnight. i love my computer, she is my friend and i want to take care of her.

i am so engrained into all of this that even if i left, what do i gain? if i log out of fedi, of twitter, do i gain anything? or do i just lose out on all my friends who solely exist here? who do i have experiences with? if i log out of discord, who will i talk to? who will i plan things with?

how does one disconnect when they’ve been using skype to play minecraft since they were 8?