This may be one of those weird Friday evening thoughts but… it’s just so weird.

There is so much AWESOME tech in my life. The fabulous BSD operating systems and ZFS. All these new indie devices and software to teach retrocomputers new tricks. Even Linux, despite the best efforts of some to turn it into Windows, is a breath of fresh air after dealing with other things all day. Music. Art. Indie games. Weird new gadgets. Homelabbing. Building things. IT MAKES ME HAPPY.

Then on the other hand there’s all the guff. The faux excitement, the blinkers, the disregard of externalities and consequences, the VC pumping, the abjection of responsibility, trust, and care. The feeling that people I once respected are peddling nonsense again. The cynical exploitation. The unreserved BULLSHIT of it all, and how when we’re onto the next fad the previous one will be forgotten, and the people who peddled it forgiven. The fact I find myself muttering to whatever machine I’m using to “be less shit”.

Depending on the time and my mood, I see one of these sides as the real world, and the other as the aberration. It flips multiple times a day. Strap a turbine to me, I’m spinning so much.

I dunno.