lots of feels this weekend. grateful to my friend who let me vent at them. it isn't enough though, i will definitely need to find a therapist again. first session booked for later this month, so hopefully it's a decent fit.

it kinda sucks tho, so much of what is causing me stress is systemic and not anything i can control. an old therapist of mine put it well- it's not wrong to be depressed if the world is depressing. i just feel it's bleeding into other parts of my life and affecting my relationships, which is nicht kuhl.